Absence

One of my former bosses used to always say to people he had not seen in a while, “you are conspicuous by your absence”

And, no… I have not published a blog entry in a few months… partly because I am working on restructuring the format, reworking the content I present, and also I’ve been doing a lot of writing/saving entries… just have not felt the push to post anything.

I also have been thinking about my own image/portrayal… How do I want to be received? How do I want to be remembered? I have a lot of experiences to share, views on things related to life and fitness more specifically… yet, I do not feel this drive to shove my views down the throats of my social media followers and blog subscribers.

I have been posting less, sharing less, taking less photos, talking less… spending more time reading, reflecting, learning, and of course, exercising.  You see, while I know I am completely transparent, honest, and express myself freely… I also realize that not every thought needs to be expressed exactly at the moment in which I think it. Maybe I’m analyzing too much… but the more nonsense I see being put out into the world, particularly on social media… the more inclined I am to remain quiet and focused on the things that truly bring me joy, happiness, a sense of fulfillment.

So have no fear… I have not disappeared… I have not gone anywhere, except the Jersey Shore for 2 days at the very end of the summer (that was the first and only time I felt sand in between my toes in 2015)… Just rethinking EVERYTHING!

~ Namaste

Visualize

On your quest to that goal you established for yourself, remember to visualize yourself already there.  This is a technique I used often during my competition preparations.  While I would spend time in the mornings doing my cardio, I would often imagine myself standing on stage, posing, smiling, and then being awarded 1st place!  Well, guess what?  It worked!!!  I know you might think that this is fantasy  or day dreaming, but if you truly believe what you are visualizing, you will call it into being!

 

So, what have you got to lose?  Try it.  Do you want to get that promotion at work?  Visualize yourself in your new office, receiving a paycheck with a higher salary, being recognized for your hard work, having colleagues congratulate you on a job well done, etc… This shouldn’t take the place of the efforts and work required on your part… but start believing the promotion will come!

I found the image below on Bob Proctor’s Facebook page, and I love it.

 

Latina

As I get older, my roots, the blood in my veins, and the music that plays in my heart echo louder and louder… as if my ancestors are reaching out to me from their graves… I have always been very proud of the name Gonzalez and of who I am…  but due to circumstances out of my control I was not immersed in my culture as a child and adolescent… Both of my parents worked very hard to break recurring cycles that passed on from generation to generation, and while I am proud of them both for providing a life for me that was different from each of their respective lives, I always felt disconnected from my culture, from my extended family, and from mi orgullo (my roots).  Now, I’m in my mid-30s, seeking out people to practice my Spanish-speaking skills with and constantly listening to Spanish radio stations, partially to get up to speed with current music, but also to listen to commercials and the DJs between each song to test my comprehension.

It is not easy, but it is so worth it.  Puerto Rican culture is so rich and my family history is something I’m sure I will always have questions about, since I now have only one living Grandparent.  I do wish I was raised bilingual, but if it takes me the rest of my life to get there, so be it.  It’s worth it.

Warrior of the Light – excerpt

A Warrior of the Light does not postpone making decisions.

He thinks a great deal before taking action. He considers his training, as well as his responsibilities and duties as a teacher. He tries to remain calm and to analyse each step as if it were of supreme importance.

However, as soon as he has made a decision, the Warrior proceeds: He has no doubts about his chosen action, nor does he change direction if circumstances turn out differently from how he had imagined them.

If his decision is correct, he will win the battle, even if it lasts longer than expected. If his decision is wrong, he will be defeated and he will have to start all over again-only this time with more wisdom.

But once he has started, a Warrior of the Light perseveres until the end.

~ Excerpt from the book Warrior of the Light by Paulo Coelho

 

Encouragement

You never know how your words can impact another person.  Even the slightest pat on the back, smile, or “good morning” to someone can impact that person’s day in such an amazing way… and usually people pass on that good vibe.    We all give off vibrations… moods… auras… and it’s constantly changing.  While there are certainly not going to be blue skies 100% of the time, it’s important to check how we are feeling throughout the day and try our best to get a handle on things.  Now…. I didn’t say this was easy, I just said it might be important to you.

Happiness is a choice… and if you are feeling good, why not spread that positive vibration to your neighbor?  It won’t hurt at all…  and maybe…

you can help lift someone’s spirits up.

Try it 🙂

 

 

heart

Play the video below… and when you do, turn it up loud and close your eyes… Something about the sounds of the waves crashing on the shores, kids playing in the distance, and the melody slowly creeping in, just puts a huge smile on my face.

I feel at peace.  I feel centered.  I feel whole.  It’s been a long time coming and I am rejoicing in my current surroundings.  Took a lot of work to get here.

I have lived a life of fear and anger, very resentful about the cards I was dealt and the abuse I endured growing up.  I have come to terms with many things, and while I don’t want to point fingers at people, I will say there came a point when I had to accept the key players in my life for who they really are, and not the idealistic hopes I so fiercely held on to.  I am extremely proud of the woman I have become, with very little help… but I hit a wall and knew it was time to make a real change in my thinking, in my psyche, in my heart.  My childhood was non-existent and I hated every minute of living under someone else’s roof.  I remember watching the movie “Grease” and being so envious of the kids in the movie.  They were about to graduate from high school and go out into the real world.  I thought to myself, “I can’t wait to be 18.  I can’t wait to get out of this place and be my own boss.”  Yes, I said these things to myself at the tender age of 7.  Sad but true.

I always wished things were different and allowed that wish to keep me down, but embarking on the path of forgiveness has allowed me to drop the weight I carried on my shoulders.  It is a process, but one I am gladly working on.

No one can change things for you.  If you want to make a change in your life, it is 100% up to you.  Yes, you can find help… and if you are lucky, you can connect with someone who has been in your shoes and can relate… perhaps showing you the light and make the journey easier.  I am comforted in knowing that my evolution is gaining momentum and I am fiercely and bravely embracing the gentle female I was never allowed to be growing up.  It feels amazing to be myself and be true to who I am.  My hope is that you will find your path and never waiver from your own goals and dreams.